Dear bloggie,
I have no intention to write anything here at first but felt like talking to someone or anyone today but everyone is either busy or they're just the wrong people. I won't post anything special tonight, just something i learned by accident. Of loving Daniel so much, i should have known better to keep my clicks to myself. The last thing that i would want to do now is to venture into his old posts before i met him; like what i did a couple of minutes ago. I didn't know i'd be this jealous when i saw him type about other girls. What more naughty bits and pieces of them (to and about). I was feeling down since the day before this week because i know that i miss him terribly and haven't had the time to be with him really close and talk to him about everything under the sun. That's, i suppose one of my very very bad habit. I love sharing with Daniel everything i know, see and listen. And when i don't, everything gets bottled up and i get all frustrated. It's not that i don't like sharing with anyone else but it's just me as a Scorp. I prefer sharing intimates with the one i really really love and it's just him. My mum has been grumpy since she was having her kidney failure. My dad never really listens anyway. Even if he does, he'll end up with a long philosophy... Which isn't something anyone would want to know >_>
Anyway, about the pass few minutes ago. I was bored and kinda upset when i found out that i was spamming and writing the unnecessary at the Gforum. I guess the only reason why i do is because i have been TOO comfortable with other forums that i spill everything about me. A very good example would be the AIC or atlantis info center. My family was there. I had Proyo as my elder sister or more like my mum ^_^''' although she was not that old. And she isn't! Then there's Alonq who was really like an along! DivineKid like a younger sister to me... Ravenmin who's my great old classmate and best friend... Kluang wasn't like my dad for god's sake! He's more like an uncle... Yea ^_^ the nice funny and jovial uncle i know. Then there's Tangerine or i call her tangy who's like a cousin because i didn't really know her that well but better than nothing. And of course Panthera Sapiens who IS my foster brother or i call, "Kor".
So back to my story i was talking about just now. Yes it was my mistake to treat somewhere I'm not familiar with as my own. My bad. But the whole point is that, i was bored, i went to the testimonial thread because i knew that Daniel was a great person at Gforum. He was and is so respected my many that sometimes i envy him (what the fuck is wrong with you O_o). I don't get that kind of respect from anyone; even my parents to be frank nor my little sister. Yea they love me, but not that kinda respect. Hoping that one day I'll get that. No one ever did say things like, "Yes i respect you" or anything related~ but what the fuck eh? I do respect myself and thats final (you jealous bitch).
I was waltzing through the posts about him and how good and great he was that was undeniable, but noticed different things instead. I knew that he was the perverted guy and so did everyone at ALL forums he went to. Eh, which guy is not anyway? ^_^'' Even my sister is XD okay okay yea. We all are in some point. So yea. Waltzing through and he was then, THEN flirting with some other girls at the forum. Kinky, very kinky words which then strike me. There went my jealousy vein, AGAIN... I never had this towards him actually. In fact told him that, "You don't have to try to make me jealous. I'll never be," Well, eat those words ya bitch! It kinda like yelled back at me >_> for some reason. Maybe i as stupid for being jealous. But i just... i don't know. I know it IS my fault. But i just hate to see it! I don't and never expect to see such things! "Oh she has WET PINK YUMMY LIPS" And that wasn't the first. Oh yea, "SEXcretary". And looks like i replaced her position! Geez who am i kidding. I just really really really really really HATE it. So much! That i am going through a pile of these! All because i was bored and felt lonely and a part of my heart was missing.. And now this.
It's been great going for the survey, had a play or two and slept. I just got home from sending him back to his uni by the way. I still can't get over that whole SEXcretary thing!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
and maybe never will >_> (you jealous bitch!)
I know he won't lie and cheat me... But if you are a women, girl, lady, what ever, sometimes it's just insane if you think he won't, but it's also insane that you think he will. I hate being a human.... @_@ I know he didn't. It was posts two years back. It's just that i still can't get over those phrases! It keeps ringing in my head! I read a few and thought, "Nah, it's just his old friends," and read funny other testimonials and i laughed about it (OH FUCK THOSE NEIGHBORS OF MINE AT THE BACK WHO ARE SCREAMING AND SHOUTING AND YELLING LIKE CRAZY APEEEEEESSSSSSSSSS!!! EVEN APES DON'T DO SUCH STUPID THINGSS!!!!) and when i accidentally encounter another, i just couldn't take it anymore. I suddenly HAD to burst into tears. And this is something i call my friends, 'jealousy outside the box' Thank you thank you~
Don't worry, plenty more to update on in the future days after my finals. Not very fond of them, never was. Never will. Just being same ol' Diane Shannon. Okay, off to bed now since i have nothing more to confess. Other than crying again (you cry baby!). Good night bloggie. I'll see when I'm done with this finals of mine. Oh yea and i have a party after the exams~ WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~ Hope it'll be fun! Oh and Daniel won't be tagging. He's got class >_> Booze'll be serve! Woohooo!!!!~ Night~
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Friday, April 4, 2008
As busy as a bee~
Dear bloggie,
So sorry for not updating you! >_____< the only reason why was because i was a lil bee throughout march...
4th March~> Had my midterm for Principle of Interviewing and it sure feels bad... Not only that, we had to sit in the exam hall with dressing as 'Bank Customer Service Executives' (lolzah~) I was in the 3/4 sleeve blouse mum gave in pleasant blue stripes and my old cream colored skirt ^_^ Nothing special if i can remember...
8th March~> The infamous election. I wonder who I'd vote for if i could~
12th March~> Had to go to college for a short talk about Ocean Pollution by a lady from the MNS (Malaysian Nature Society) at 11am and that was it. Came home and ... *forgot* (>_>)
20th March~> Prophet Mu(/o)hd.s' = holiday = Daniel sleep-over~
21th March~> 1st day for Eng. Composition II class debate and Daniel had to tag along if not he'd be at home with mummy with nothing to do... XD so he followed and played his PSP like a lil boy ^_^'' Later after the debate, had some photo's taken by Melissa for for (fun). And these are apart of the piccies taken~ ^_^
22th March~> Had an outting with Ritha, VJ, Mel mel, Kak Iylia and Daniel. Got lost i=on the way to Mel mel's place when VJ got confused when Ritha was giving him directions ^_^'' It was a laugh if you were sitting at the back listening to the conversation... Then when we were all in the car (Ritha, Mel mel, VJ, Daniel and I), next stop, TIMES SQUARE! WOOOOOOOoooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooo~~~~~~ *LOLZAH*
Had a great time having breakfast at McD then walked around and followed Mel mel to the ladies to see her get her cosplay suit on~ Oh yea! There was the ACGC thingy during that day... No wonder- ok never mind... Anyway, after that, we went walking around and ended up at the event looking at other cosplayers and gamers. And it's time for me to be more cautious since it's Daniels' interest here; and instead of him getting lost, i got lost again >_> *lamelamelamelamelamelame* Found him again at the dota "arena" and he said he was there all the time (yea yea yea).
Walked a lil more and Ritha told me that i should cosplay as well. As who? Boo from Monster Inc. ^_^'''' They asked me to hold my hair into two pony tails and took off my glasses and made me say "Boo!" They were obviously amused ^_^'''' Then to the arcade we go~~
Walked even more and wanted to go watch a movie at the IMAX theater so yea, VJ belanje XDDDD well since he's the only adult who is working! >_____< So, we all watched 10k BC~ I can't believe Daniel said it was boring! And he SLEPT there! I felt like crying when he said that... I really thought we could enjoy the movie so much... *sigh*
Walked around, again (it's TIMES square. So, we should times everything we do) and stopped at the arcade, again. At 7pm, we all had to go back liao...
26th March~> This day is like really sad and frustrated, although it was the Intercultural Night/ Day event. We, the intercul. class had about 70 over student and were divided into 13 groups which then have to represent a culture or a country to exhibit their country and perform the culture. the culture my group and i chose was the Shanghai culture. I was the leader of 7 members including me.
Daniel couldn't make it. It was his full day of classes...
Had to rush to and fro from home to college to go steam the bao's because i forgot to bring it along with me the day before i was at my member's place.
So, was finally back at college and had to change into my clothings (cheong sam) and into my makeup. Before that, the two stupid indian girls who wanted to go to sunway pyramid to go get new hair pins. Fuck you bitches. Can't you go get the items earlier?? I needed man power and you bitches had to go! FUCK you.
Yea i was angry. But i didn't wanna ruin my mood. So, i carried my bags to the ladies at the 1st floor and changed. Once done, i (hate it when everyone is staring >_>_>_>_>_>) had Mel mel (who does most of my makeup for me and she does makeup for me when she's bored ^_^''') to apply my makeup. The eyeliner was the main attraction which means it had to be obvious, long and thick because women then would make sure they were beautiful and presentable. So when applying, everyone was already looking. When i had my blood red lipstick on, everyone stared. I was good at that when i have makeup on ^_^'''
The lift was full and slow so i had to walked down and so i did. That made more ppl look at me! But i had to choice. I had to work (manage my group and things) and talk and move at the same time. STRESS.
BUT it felt pretty good when the crowd came and asked, "Can i have a picture with you?" "Is it ok if i took a picture of you?" "wait wait wait! I wanna be there(picture) too!" I was the main attraction of the culture then ^_^'' BUT (again) i enjoy it more than being a bitch to order my group members around >_>
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Before my own cultures' dance, i was to help the Burmese with theirs because they lack of a few dancers. Even Ritha was in ^_^ (yay i have company~~~!) But the problem is, i had to go back early the day before and they smartly decided to add in the steps. I was already exhausted and so terribly tired, they had to add in the headache by adding steps! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! But what the fuck. I made mistakes and i wasn't guilty about it. Why? Because they didn't inform us earlier about the new steps and had to put it in. Too bad too sad.
Then we had our performance, which was a simple and gentle chinese dance (which is will post it here when i get the file >_>).
When everything was done, we had a group piccy... If you see a tiny spect in black tee and light brown pants, that'll be me. If you don't i went to change~ XD
^ I look like i'm dying in the Burmese dance... And that lady in the Mexican ponco is my lecturer, Ms Padma (who's a pain in the ass recently in all my classes with her >_>)
Ok thats all the picture i'll show. I still have more~~~
Anyway, the event was fun but i hated the indian girls very much. They're always the MIA idiots. See what'll happen in the report.
27th March~> There's the forum presentation for my group today and well it sucks. Boring... What else. It's a forum.
29th March~> Skipped the AA sports day to go visit and pray ah kong. Had a great time with great food! WOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOoooooo~~
So sorry for not updating you! >_____< the only reason why was because i was a lil bee throughout march...
4th March~> Had my midterm for Principle of Interviewing and it sure feels bad... Not only that, we had to sit in the exam hall with dressing as 'Bank Customer Service Executives' (lolzah~) I was in the 3/4 sleeve blouse mum gave in pleasant blue stripes and my old cream colored skirt ^_^ Nothing special if i can remember...
8th March~> The infamous election. I wonder who I'd vote for if i could~
12th March~> Had to go to college for a short talk about Ocean Pollution by a lady from the MNS (Malaysian Nature Society) at 11am and that was it. Came home and ... *forgot* (>_>)
20th March~> Prophet Mu(/o)hd.s' = holiday = Daniel sleep-over~
21th March~> 1st day for Eng. Composition II class debate and Daniel had to tag along if not he'd be at home with mummy with nothing to do... XD so he followed and played his PSP like a lil boy ^_^'' Later after the debate, had some photo's taken by Melissa for for (fun). And these are apart of the piccies taken~ ^_^
22th March~> Had an outting with Ritha, VJ, Mel mel, Kak Iylia and Daniel. Got lost i=on the way to Mel mel's place when VJ got confused when Ritha was giving him directions ^_^'' It was a laugh if you were sitting at the back listening to the conversation... Then when we were all in the car (Ritha, Mel mel, VJ, Daniel and I), next stop, TIMES SQUARE! WOOOOOOOoooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooo~~~~~~ *LOLZAH*
Had a great time having breakfast at McD then walked around and followed Mel mel to the ladies to see her get her cosplay suit on~ Oh yea! There was the ACGC thingy during that day... No wonder- ok never mind... Anyway, after that, we went walking around and ended up at the event looking at other cosplayers and gamers. And it's time for me to be more cautious since it's Daniels' interest here; and instead of him getting lost, i got lost again >_> *lamelamelamelamelamelame* Found him again at the dota "arena" and he said he was there all the time (yea yea yea).
Walked a lil more and Ritha told me that i should cosplay as well. As who? Boo from Monster Inc. ^_^'''' They asked me to hold my hair into two pony tails and took off my glasses and made me say "Boo!" They were obviously amused ^_^'''' Then to the arcade we go~~
Walked even more and wanted to go watch a movie at the IMAX theater so yea, VJ belanje XDDDD well since he's the only adult who is working! >_____< So, we all watched 10k BC~ I can't believe Daniel said it was boring! And he SLEPT there! I felt like crying when he said that... I really thought we could enjoy the movie so much... *sigh*
Walked around, again (it's TIMES square. So, we should times everything we do) and stopped at the arcade, again. At 7pm, we all had to go back liao...
26th March~> This day is like really sad and frustrated, although it was the Intercultural Night/ Day event. We, the intercul. class had about 70 over student and were divided into 13 groups which then have to represent a culture or a country to exhibit their country and perform the culture. the culture my group and i chose was the Shanghai culture. I was the leader of 7 members including me.
Daniel couldn't make it. It was his full day of classes...
Had to rush to and fro from home to college to go steam the bao's because i forgot to bring it along with me the day before i was at my member's place.
So, was finally back at college and had to change into my clothings (cheong sam) and into my makeup. Before that, the two stupid indian girls who wanted to go to sunway pyramid to go get new hair pins. Fuck you bitches. Can't you go get the items earlier?? I needed man power and you bitches had to go! FUCK you.
Yea i was angry. But i didn't wanna ruin my mood. So, i carried my bags to the ladies at the 1st floor and changed. Once done, i (hate it when everyone is staring >_>_>_>_>_>) had Mel mel (who does most of my makeup for me and she does makeup for me when she's bored ^_^''') to apply my makeup. The eyeliner was the main attraction which means it had to be obvious, long and thick because women then would make sure they were beautiful and presentable. So when applying, everyone was already looking. When i had my blood red lipstick on, everyone stared. I was good at that when i have makeup on ^_^'''
The lift was full and slow so i had to walked down and so i did. That made more ppl look at me! But i had to choice. I had to work (manage my group and things) and talk and move at the same time. STRESS.
BUT it felt pretty good when the crowd came and asked, "Can i have a picture with you?" "Is it ok if i took a picture of you?" "wait wait wait! I wanna be there(picture) too!" I was the main attraction of the culture then ^_^'' BUT (again) i enjoy it more than being a bitch to order my group members around >_>
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Before my own cultures' dance, i was to help the Burmese with theirs because they lack of a few dancers. Even Ritha was in ^_^ (yay i have company~~~!) But the problem is, i had to go back early the day before and they smartly decided to add in the steps. I was already exhausted and so terribly tired, they had to add in the headache by adding steps! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! But what the fuck. I made mistakes and i wasn't guilty about it. Why? Because they didn't inform us earlier about the new steps and had to put it in. Too bad too sad.
Then we had our performance, which was a simple and gentle chinese dance (which is will post it here when i get the file >_>).
When everything was done, we had a group piccy... If you see a tiny spect in black tee and light brown pants, that'll be me. If you don't i went to change~ XD
^ I look like i'm dying in the Burmese dance... And that lady in the Mexican ponco is my lecturer, Ms Padma (who's a pain in the ass recently in all my classes with her >_>)
Ok thats all the picture i'll show. I still have more~~~
Anyway, the event was fun but i hated the indian girls very much. They're always the MIA idiots. See what'll happen in the report.
27th March~> There's the forum presentation for my group today and well it sucks. Boring... What else. It's a forum.
29th March~> Skipped the AA sports day to go visit and pray ah kong. Had a great time with great food! WOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooOOOOOOOOOoooooo~~
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